THIS IS SOMETHING NOT FICTIONAL OR SKEPTICAL.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009 @ 1:48 AM

I came to realise everything started to change rapidly. Every singled living and non-living materials are changing and growing rapidly and unknowingly. Okay, I'm just hate to admit but can't deny that I'm afraid of growing up. Today, I flipped through my old fs's seeing everyone changing and people even got married in such a young age. I'm so amazed and surprised.

Sometimes things just occurred so unpredictable to what we've expected, likewise I've learnt not to take things for granted. Hardly can find jobs also, pays are descending probably due to economic recession. Okay, Sucked. I've also realised time flies, I'm turning 19 in three months time. I'm so freaking afraid to grow up! Where you can't do a lot things and you're headed with burden and still burden of burdens regardless of work, family, school, physically and mentally and worse is you don't know where to get solution when you become an adult because we are not a child with people who can led and guide us somewhere and at times we must be capable of doing the right things. Wow, this mean we must learn to grow up and become a Grown-up. Things just don't get in the way we see. It's rather tedious if only everything I mentioned could be defer, I'd be elated.

I'm started to feel a gush of unwillingness and disinclination rushing over my head asking me to stop, stop growing up because I'm afraid. Year 2009 sucked. Recession, retrenchment, aging! I'd probably find a Neverland of mine and hide there forever and ever leaving all my possessions here!

Hopefully, there's still glimpse of HOPE for me to grap on.